Being a stay at home mom is a funny thing. For the first 4 years of your kids’ lives you are completely consumed with their care and preparing them for that ineveitable day that they test their wings and take off for that first day of school. You completely miss out on preparing yourself for that day though. I think this hits mom’s with kids with special needs harder than other mom’s in a way. My son has autism and even though he is in grade 3 now I’ve spent the last 4 years conferencing with the school, teachers, principal and therapists to make sure all the supports are in place for him to be successful. Not to mention the biweekly calls last year when he was having daily outbursts. It’s really been a full time job.
This year however Tristan is settling in better than expected and my incredible daughter is taking to grade 1 like a fish to water. So with both kids in school full time and both mostly settled in I find myself at loose ends. Don’t get me wrong, I am LOVING it!! A quiet house, time to cook and clean and run errands. But I do find myself wanting something, something I can call my own, something I can build, whether its a career or fun hobby I’m not sure. It’s nice to have some time to get back to me though. To work on my identity outside of mommy. The big question is what do I want to be when I grow up? That’s the question I hope to answer this school year.
For now I’m going to keep it simple and do what I love, run, throw some weights around and write.